Happy Thanksgiving

Obviously since you are reading this, i will not be home for thanksgiving... and for the holidays for that matter. but i wanted to personally take a moment and wish everyone a very happy thanksgiving, and a very very special merry christmas. i was away to school for the last thanksgiving, and it really hurt to know that i was only a few hours away. but this year it is a little easier to handle seeing as how i am 7000 mile away from you guys. although i did make it for christmas, i, again, will not be able to make it home for that either. 

i was pretty bummin when i knew i wasnt coming home for the holidays, and as they approached, i began to... well, lose it. getting somewhat irritable, finding myself sitting in my room, thinking only of family, and nothing else really. and then a very close family member, actually today, wrote to me and told me straight. they mentioned that i need to get my head on straight. that i need to realize that i made a commitment, and need to stick to it, the metaphor of marriage was said. they said that it was a blessing that i still had contact with family (i.e. phone, email, internet), and that you need to grow up sometimes. 

so after reading their message to me, i continued to surf the web, and it didnt really dawn to me until i started writing this post that, yea, i have made a large commitment. there are somethings in life that i do need to sacrifice. i cant live on the luxuries i had when i was a civilian anymore, i mean i can still enjoy the conversations, and the photos, but i need to stay committed to my job, and my country.. and with that comes long days and short nights, holidays with bosses and minimal luxuries. i realized that i will have to miss a few christmas's and a few birthdays, and a few thanksgivings, but that is what making a commitment to something like the military is. -inhalestofighttheurgetocry- i miss my family so much... but i know that if i was not over here, even though i dont shoot a gun, or ride in a tank on patrol or convoy, i know i am doing my part to give my family the freedom to celebrate the holidays. it is time for me to man up and not jones over the holidays, or the fact that i dont get to see my family everyday. 

i guess what im trying to say is that it is time for me to grow up, and start taking responsibility. 

i love you guys, and i miss you so much.